She always gives me the stare when we talk..  whats wrong.. she's the one who said NO last time, and now when she's able to socialize with others again, she's like a glue, sticking on to you! Gosh.. i cant stand it.. and that's why i dont wanna get so close to you.. My friends were asking, what's going on between us.. and i dont have the answer for them ..

         It really sux when you are standing on the fence, between the two groups. .thinking which to choose. We cant have both things at the same time, we'll pick the one that suits us best. But unfortunately, its hard for me to play the chessboard. I've to spend lots of time.. always trying to make everyone happy, and yet, in the end, i'm the one who got squeezed dry.. out of you guys..

         It seems so pathetic sometimes, for the whole of my life.. it's always been like that. And i never complain anything at all. If I was given the chance to choose, i would rather terminate the existence of you guys.. But as sad as the saying goes.. no man is an island..  Sigh.. alright.. sometimes i do need help for my studies.. but that doesnt means that you're the only one i can depent on. Library is full of nerds.. just ask anyone of them, and will get the answers i want .. immediately..

         Hanging out with the wrong people.. at the wrong time.. at the wrong place.. and.. it ruins me.. Love songs make people even sadder..

         Was feeling so so sad yesterday for no reasons. .well.. alright.. there might be one or two reasons contributing to it.. but i dont think it's significant at all.. and i kept sighing while i was writing my daily mails to Tze.. anyway.. That was yesterday.. N we grow up from every incident and mistake. So, I shall just let you go... and always wishing the best for you...

         Was pretty glad to see you in uni today.. well.. though u suddenly imitate my action.. n i was abit taken aback by your act. But then still, thanks for saying hi.

         Classes is just so tiring.. especially after a group discussion of 3 hours.. Thanks to the uni interior design.. i actually stepped into the wrong loo.. coz each floor has different locations.. and i thought that i was entering the correct one.. Gosh.. luckily there was no one else in there, or maybe there was. Coz i heard some sound of the "water", but lucky enough, i managed to turn and walk out before that someone come out of the toilet and see my face.

         Study study and study.. i shouldnt be writing mails and blogging ...

         I'm glad that I'm okay even seeing you with two other girls. Was indeed quite surprised with how I reacted. But to that, i really wanna thank Jul. I hope that we'll have fond and cherished memories in uni. Though you seem to be siding another one, but, I know that things can change, and will be changed.

         It's numb in me now. I cant feel anything at all.

         I'm so sorry that i didnt see you.. must be a fool myself at that moment. But then, once again, we still get to see what's the meaning of fate. There are both ways, but we choosed to use the same direction, and who can explain this?

         And, to cut down petrol cost, toll, parking, depreciation value of the car, maintenance, service, although i dont like to have people in my car while i'm driving, coz i have to think of their safety all the time.. and whether they'll feel comfortable if i made a sudden brake or what.. but then, i still have to pick up 2 people on monday morning. Sigh. And i kept thinking whether the fare is fair.

         Saturday morning, and rain is not falling. Sitting right here since i woke up, nothing done, gotta study soon, but not in the right mood.  Still left lots of lecture notes to cover. I find it much faster if it is discussed with a friend, because we'll know what we missed out in lectures, and can explain to each other. But sad to say most of the time, friends will be explaining to me. Ehe.

         Well... it's already 1.20pm now. Lunch time for most people, but i just had my breakfast 2 hours ago.. oh no.. i actually wasted two precious hours coming online, and doing nothing.. its like. .addiction.. bad for health, and bad for studies to. No beneifts. And oh yeah, the d/l rate was super high just now. It hit a high speed of 78kb/s, That was seriouslly amazing.

         Anyway, there's a few msges i wanna leave here..
Tze    --> Enjoy your weekend and have a fun time k..Write to me when you're free
So real guy  --> Hope u finish your cartoon asap and have a jolly good time in Ball
Senior  --> U're leaving soon.. few more days left. All the best and will be missin ya
CSU partner  -->  Hey, study lar ! finish yr PBL, and lets stay back on tuesday
Mentee  -->  Take care of my notes :p  Lost your money, but dont lose her
Someone -->  So sorry that we didnt talk for 4 days,but i dunno wat to talk with u

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Funky har.. havent came across this kinda lyrics for a long long time dy..

I wonder whether i did the right thing today. I had a golden opportunity to get the thing i want, but still, i let it slipped through my fingers. But then, if say I did the other way round, I might be regretting now too. But then, if I really did the other way, it might be a tremendous change for me! But then, i still think that it's kinda risky, and I might want to do it step by step. But then, I was so tore apart at that moment of time !!

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         Just because a girl is totally different from others, and that she's perfect in some ways, that the guy gave up on going after her, afraid that he might ruin their friendship, afraid that he might not be able to give her the world, afraid that their relationship will not work out. However, if so, whats the purpose on having a crush or hitting on her? No matter how much he praises her, all the compliments that he gives, is actually similar to the whispers blown into the air.. NOTHING, in fact. And hence, when people asked and she answers that she's still single, gasps and surprised expression will be registered on their faces.. Unbelievable! In fact it is, hard to believe, but then, if all guys are having the same mentality, why cant take the truth?

         And, i still cant belive that people can actually sell themselves to others, no matter for what reasons..

         So by the day i meet you, I would like to congratulate and thank you, on everything that you (will) be doing.. no matter what.. cause you had shown more than all the others managed to.. and I really salute you.

         So.. the whole orientation craze had finally came to an end. It was really great knowing those great juniors in my group. They're just awesome !! Creative, sporting, lively, fun.. all the good things.. name it and you'll find it in them..

         Was really impressed with them during treasure hunt and variety night.. They threw up a great show.. And of course.. thanks to the group leader, for his responsibilty on everything, and all the love and care he showed for all group members. Thanks Kev !

         And now, once again, life is back to its usual peaceful, slow pace. I do hope that we're still able to keep in touch with each other when semester starts.. I'll miss you guys !! Actually i'm already missing them right now..  though we just went for a movie few hours ago.. ahhh.. this is bad.

         Anyway, photos will be posted in friendster and not here.. in order to respect other peoples' privacy  :)   Coz like what i'd mentioned in my previous blog, blogging is not safe at all..  People get fired or sued cause of what they posted on their blogs.

         Well..  have to think of what to do now.. perhaps should really start studying after playing for the whole holiday.. n am still yet to get myself a school bag .. whatelse.. let me see.. oh.. and lecture clothes.. arghz ..

         I miss all of you guys in group 7 !! Enjoy your lectures and have a jolly good time !!

         I'M SO DAMN TIRED !!!

         And i did something damn stupid just now !! Arghz !!! I'm so screwed !!!!