What do we mean by, GROWING UP. Yes, it's not a hard term to understand, but what does it means? Growing up in size? shape? mentally? physically? or?

      What i figured out till today is, parents who caged their children and protect them under their wings, do not understand the meaning of Growing Up. They'll think that they're protecting their children against all harms and threats, but what they dont know is, that their children are actually babies!!

      I've met parents who are like that, even when the children are alraedy old enough to get married! But yet, they still hold their children tighly as though they're married to them, and do not want to let them fly free !! Dont they read about parenting? Dont they attend seminars or courses on how to educate your kids and be a super top parent? Or perhaps, the parents themselves had had some personal experience and hence they're now putting revenge on their own kids !!

      Oh well. what can i say more about this? Life's  short. If u hold your kids back till they're already in their twenties or thirties, you're already grabbing hold one third of their life ! another one third of their lives will be spend being in marriage (if they're lucky enough to get their parents' approval to let them marry the person they want), and the last one third of their lives will be spend in the house, being old, rotting, and they'll start to hold their children tightly again, like how their parents did to them. Cant you see it? It's a cycle !!

      Wake up and grow up when u still have the chance to. Dont regret when you're already thirty something, and still dependind on your good old mama to make decisions for you !!

p/s : Specially dedicated to the babies *u know who i meant*    

         It seems that people just cant communicate well. Idiots.

         There are these people who dont care about other people's inconvenience, and whom like to waste others time by asking them to run errands, or to do something which they've already did it.

         Crazy people whom think that petrol is cheap,and parking is foc, and time is not priceless afterall.

         Sigh. What happen to those intelligent friends of mine? Where have they gone to? I wish that they'll be back here once again so that i can get out of this crappy life that im having now..

         And why cant people just get over their ex? Are those stuffs still important? Love letters, stuff toys, ewww... a guy having stuff toys of his ex while he's dating another girl.. oh gosh..  can i just tell the girl to dump him right away... worthless..  crying over old memories when he's having another one right beside him..  geez..  What kinda mentality is that.. Sad enough.

         Hmmm. I think i know why. Like mother, Like son.  And yes, It's MU. not FU.

         Parents whom are not supportive is really a big headache in a relationship. Parents who objects everything, parents who dont allow their kids to enjoy dating and have fun. Parents whom are really possessive, and somemore want to accuse the kid's partner of being obsessive because the kids spent time with their bfs or gfs. Why does this kind of parents exists?

         For example, the kid wanted to go out with lets say, his gf, to some event. The parents purposely drag and drag and dont want to give the kid a reply, whether they allow him to go or not. Then last minute, when they know that he cant make it for the event anymore, then they'll say..   ok la... i allow u to go.. what kind of bull shit is this.. Trying to pretent to be a good samaritan, but then happy in the heart because the kid cant go out anymore?

         The kid celebrating his party, but the parents said that they dont really fancy the gf to be there cause they're afraid that she'll be jealous if she sees other gals hug her bf. Wtf. This is just sooo ridiculous. Where got parents dont want their kid's partner to be together with them during birthday occassions or family dinner? Sigh.

         Or maybe, the parents rather let the gal drive herself all the way to his house, but dont allow him to drive over to the girl's place..  wtf. What kind of logic is this. Then why would the gal wants to be with you? For what? You cant even protect her and give her the basic needs, when she always provides u with sex if u asked for it. Bullshit.

         Over possessive parents.. kids already 21, illegal age to get married, and ask the kids always to not to be serious in their relationship. Parents used to be player thats why teach the kids to be player. Think that their own kids are real good, but didnt know all their dark dirty secrets.

         Parents who think that they have status in society, rich, have a name.. so what? there're tonnes of rich people out there..  what's so proud about being rich in that small little society? damn it..  If you want such a perfect match for your kids, why not just get a robot?

         Selfish and possessive parents.. 

         Luckily my parents are supportive enough. To those whom dont have supportive parents in your relationship, it really sux. 2 the max.

         Is 21st birthday a really big deal?  Is it a must that a big party must be held for it?  Why cant it just be a family celebration?

         I dont understand. It might be important to some, but not to all. But, the most important is, to the person who's going to celebrate it !! And not his family or friends who wants this and that. Ridiculous !!

         Come on.. it's just a birthday..  it's only a birthday!!! Geez..  It's cool if u have hundreds  of friends to invite.. what if u only have tiny little numbers.. whats the point of it..  D it..

Happy birthday to you..

Happy birthday to you....

Happy birthday to myself.....

Happy birthday to ME =)   =)   =)

      It's been a month ago since i last blogged. Basically nothing much happened in my life, and nothing worth telling. Mainly all about sad stuffs, and just dont want myself to cry anymore, and hence, do not wish to bring it up. *sob sob*

      Guess i might've been quite a fool by myself. My exam results sucks this time, and am wondering how to not let my parents know about it. Sigh. Stung by swarms of mosquitoes and had like 25 bites all over my hands, and legs, wishing for someone to care for, or at least just ask a simple Are You Okay, but then, ended up with disppointment, as usual. A bloody waste of my time, where i can sit back home and relax, and not feeding my blood to the beasts out there. What the heck are you thinking about? That I'm so damn free in this whole wide world and have nothing better to do than to follow you here and there, take care of your stuffs, take care of you, and do everything like what you've told? Damn. I must be a fool, and a total idiot to have brought myself to this stage. Though i'll never regret of the road i'd taken months ago, but i'm now standing on the fence, wondering which safe ground to land on. Might be some land without you in it anymore, but with some more caring homosapiens, adults, mature, and responsible.

        Damn it. Fumes of fury, sadness, anger, disappointment, regretness ...

You know what, you'll regret for making me feel this way... and this time i'm serious about it... Just wait and see for yourself ...

         Well. .to know the fact that how we actually felt for each other 2.2 years ago.. And why only today, when i started to bring it up again only that u admit it? Well.. things might not be the same now if we were both more brave and strong that time. But, perhaps it's also a blessing in disguise. Coz we might be suffering from not seeing each other everyday. And hence, it's all God's will.

         But whatever it is, and whatever that will happen in the future.. I just wish you all the best, and who knows, fate might bring us back together one day :-)

- Cherry Blossom -

         Well.. it still keeps me wondering whether i'm doing the right damn thing, cause, 50% of my mind said that it's not correct, and 50% said that it might be correct. And well.. guess i just have to give myself a month's time. And if, till then, I'm still confused, I shall just let it be what it's meant to be..

         A white blank sheet being coloured, and most, with the colour that is always related to fear, revenge - BLACK , in one day, takes me aback. Guess I didnt expect it to be coloured so fast.. but well, things always lose it's ends.. and by the time u realize it, for goodness sake, you might be knocking on heaven's door. Scary aint it.. and once the paper is coloured, there's no way u can use a liquid paper or whatsoever to erase all the lines.. well, recycle's the best way perhaps, and thus, indicating death, and reborn, which is basically not relevant at all.

         Though am talking crap here.. But since i didnt post any entries for that long time. decided that its the time to write something.. Who cares what is it.. Cause no one reads my blog.. Its just for me to post for self satisfaction, and to write anything that i want to. But kinda scary.. think my identity gonna be reveales soon by some super smart people out there.. well.. one managed cause it was my fault to post something up there.. but yeah.. think the second one might appear real soon.. and if so.. I shall save this whole thing to my computer.. and delete the blog..

         Some said.. why wanna be so secretive? Well.. everyone has his or her own secrets.. like for now.. i have a really BIG secret in me too..and .. if say one day i get to find out the answer to my secret mystery.. guess it's be damn heart devastating to know it.. Perhaps.. sometimes.. things are always best to be remained as a secret.